Yesterday, my three-year-old cousin who was scolded tried to smother my sister's face with a towel in attempt to stop her breathing. Where do we learn this evilness?
So even kids have their Micheal Jackson moments? :))
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Finally Unchained
I'm free.
I will no longer allow my sister to push me around. I'm not a slave toy or anything of that sort. I demand respect by expecting it and not by by pushing others to give it to me. I am a free being in this world and I'll stop trying to be someone I am not.
Just be myself.
I'm already sixteen and I'm still having an identity crisis. I should constantly ask myself, "Who am I?" and always expect changing or unchaging answers.
Accept change. Accept the self. Accept what is there.
It's funny, what I like about my sister is that she's smart, but I don't like her when she thinks she's so smart that she can push anyone around.
What I don't like about my brother is that he's fat, yet I like him for being fat because I won't be the fattest in the family.
I like my sister because she's a good talker and singer, but I hate her because she sings too loud and tries to escape or make excuses by smooth talking -- it's dispicable.
I don't like my brother because he never talks or initiates anything, but I like it because he won't end up initiating any evil plots of his own.
I like my brother because he has cute fat on his torso and abdomen, but I dislike it because he ends up being a whore when he sells his body to gain another material object that can be attained in other means.
Hehe, I don't think I can say something bad about myself because I'm suppose to look for stuff good about me because I might be the only one saying good stuff about myself.
I like my dad because he's smart and open-minded, but sometimes I don't like it because I can't understand sometimes.
I like my mom because she's fun but sometimes her fun turns out to be naughty and childish -- even I can tell and I'm her daughter.
I like my uncle because he's funny, but sometimes when he gets so into his joking around that I feel uneasy around him -- like, I ask "what am I suppose to say?"
I like my aunt 'cause she's quiet and encouraging, but sometimes, I think it's the only phase I see so it gets pretty boring.
I like my cousin because he's a musician, a smart guy, a football player and a hard worker; of course, hehe, sometimes I can't relate but hey,..
hehe, my objective isn't to pin-point other's faults but to acknowledge the faults of others and that these faults are a part of them which means that they should be respected as much as yourself.
What are my weaknesses: I suck at Filipino, Cebuano, caligraphy and...I don't read too much.
Strengths: math, laughing, focus, memory
hehe, for every weakness, there is a strength. :3
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I will no longer allow my sister to push me around. I'm not a slave toy or anything of that sort. I demand respect by expecting it and not by by pushing others to give it to me. I am a free being in this world and I'll stop trying to be someone I am not.
Just be myself.
I'm already sixteen and I'm still having an identity crisis. I should constantly ask myself, "Who am I?" and always expect changing or unchaging answers.
Accept change. Accept the self. Accept what is there.
It's funny, what I like about my sister is that she's smart, but I don't like her when she thinks she's so smart that she can push anyone around.
What I don't like about my brother is that he's fat, yet I like him for being fat because I won't be the fattest in the family.
I like my sister because she's a good talker and singer, but I hate her because she sings too loud and tries to escape or make excuses by smooth talking -- it's dispicable.
I don't like my brother because he never talks or initiates anything, but I like it because he won't end up initiating any evil plots of his own.
I like my brother because he has cute fat on his torso and abdomen, but I dislike it because he ends up being a whore when he sells his body to gain another material object that can be attained in other means.
Hehe, I don't think I can say something bad about myself because I'm suppose to look for stuff good about me because I might be the only one saying good stuff about myself.
I like my dad because he's smart and open-minded, but sometimes I don't like it because I can't understand sometimes.
I like my mom because she's fun but sometimes her fun turns out to be naughty and childish -- even I can tell and I'm her daughter.
I like my uncle because he's funny, but sometimes when he gets so into his joking around that I feel uneasy around him -- like, I ask "what am I suppose to say?"
I like my aunt 'cause she's quiet and encouraging, but sometimes, I think it's the only phase I see so it gets pretty boring.
I like my cousin because he's a musician, a smart guy, a football player and a hard worker; of course, hehe, sometimes I can't relate but hey,..
hehe, my objective isn't to pin-point other's faults but to acknowledge the faults of others and that these faults are a part of them which means that they should be respected as much as yourself.
What are my weaknesses: I suck at Filipino, Cebuano, caligraphy and...I don't read too much.
Strengths: math, laughing, focus, memory
hehe, for every weakness, there is a strength. :3
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Sunday, April 11, 2010
Making a big deal out of nothing is the worst thing I can do right now
Honestly, yes, Judy's like a monster in the morning. I hate her during at mornings. She's always moody and cranky. Who would want to share a room with a freak like that? Shit. I hate her.
I would be ruining my life and hers if I decided to shut her out of my life. No, I won't shut her out of my life even though that it seems to be the best thing that might ever happen to me. I'm sick of Japanese stuff she's making me watch. Masu and Tego are not that cute. Sure, fill your head with imaginings that are temporary idols. It's super idiotic.
Why must I live with such a twit?
I'll admit that I'm no walk in the park either but I want someone who's more in touch with reality. FINE. I'll end this blog for now. F this baby up. I'm using the laptop next.
I would be ruining my life and hers if I decided to shut her out of my life. No, I won't shut her out of my life even though that it seems to be the best thing that might ever happen to me. I'm sick of Japanese stuff she's making me watch. Masu and Tego are not that cute. Sure, fill your head with imaginings that are temporary idols. It's super idiotic.
Why must I live with such a twit?
I'll admit that I'm no walk in the park either but I want someone who's more in touch with reality. FINE. I'll end this blog for now. F this baby up. I'm using the laptop next.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I want to be brainier this year, want to help?
Just yesterday, I took an IQ test along with my sister. It turns out that we have the EXACTLY the number of mistakes and correct answers. I've known her all my highschool life, we do everything together because we live in the same house. My sister's my friend, she is downright sour in the mornings, GOSH. This morning felt kind of different. She woke up by calling my name and asked me what was the brand name of an economical gel pen worth nine Philippine pesos. Isn't she a darling? Yes, she's our family's Micheal Angelo. Damn good one if you ask me.
Since we have equal IQ, I want to excel by hanging out with smarter people. For me to fit in with the brainy, I should learn how they think :)) That must be fun, trying to see why their IQ is so high. I think true intelligence is formed through relationships. Being able to adapt is another. I'd want to be like an iguana. I want to fit in and enjoy my surroundings. Mainly, the iguana changes its color to protect itself from predators. But there's more to life than just adapting, it's also about making a difference in your surrounding. A good difference, not the rebellious kind. This individuality that we were all born with, we must treasure it all our life because if you won't be you, there's no YOU to call I.
I want to be smarter. I want to expand my borders. I want to excel. I want to be prosperous for me to be able to give more to others. To increase the quality of life, my life and others.
Since we have equal IQ, I want to excel by hanging out with smarter people. For me to fit in with the brainy, I should learn how they think :)) That must be fun, trying to see why their IQ is so high. I think true intelligence is formed through relationships. Being able to adapt is another. I'd want to be like an iguana. I want to fit in and enjoy my surroundings. Mainly, the iguana changes its color to protect itself from predators. But there's more to life than just adapting, it's also about making a difference in your surrounding. A good difference, not the rebellious kind. This individuality that we were all born with, we must treasure it all our life because if you won't be you, there's no YOU to call I.
I want to be smarter. I want to expand my borders. I want to excel. I want to be prosperous for me to be able to give more to others. To increase the quality of life, my life and others.
Nay-sayers don't dream big or have crabs for BLD
Today, something miraculous happened. A total crack decided to put people down because of such a number singed unto his forehead. Withdrawing is the wisest thing to do. Nobody needs people like that. Sour pusses, who needs them, really? But in reality, people who do these wretched things --they're the ones hurting inside the most.
Pity is not the word for how I felt towards the man. It's a want to embrace the man. I just want to tell him, "There's no need to hurt any longer. Come here."
Human sadness truly is brought out from loneliness, bitterness, and fear of not receiving what you want. It's not the wants that matter, it's the needs.
=)) How dirty of me to think that such people are sexy.
No, they are not. We, humans, may naturally enjoy challenges. We cling to relationships that we feel are in danger. We hangout with people who we think won't be our friend anymore the next day. That's good in your want to preserve a relationship but the other party may think that they can manipulate you. Don't give in. Don't give up either on the relationship so easily. Manipulation is having a remote control button, you may be in control now but what's the result when you lose the remote?
The disaster of the other party discovering the truth of your intentions. Of how you cannot handle a free relationship when both sides are equal. You think you can only handle it if you have the remote control in your hands. When you do have it, you certainly don't recognize the other party as a human with feelings, a human who is a good as you. You don't see that because all you can see is the pain of losing the person you like!
You don't need remote controls or pull some strings if you have a loving and caring relationship. Just be yourself. If you think your true self is not good enough, then improve yourself. It's a matter of choice and discipline.
Pity is not the word for how I felt towards the man. It's a want to embrace the man. I just want to tell him, "There's no need to hurt any longer. Come here."
Human sadness truly is brought out from loneliness, bitterness, and fear of not receiving what you want. It's not the wants that matter, it's the needs.
=)) How dirty of me to think that such people are sexy.
No, they are not. We, humans, may naturally enjoy challenges. We cling to relationships that we feel are in danger. We hangout with people who we think won't be our friend anymore the next day. That's good in your want to preserve a relationship but the other party may think that they can manipulate you. Don't give in. Don't give up either on the relationship so easily. Manipulation is having a remote control button, you may be in control now but what's the result when you lose the remote?
The disaster of the other party discovering the truth of your intentions. Of how you cannot handle a free relationship when both sides are equal. You think you can only handle it if you have the remote control in your hands. When you do have it, you certainly don't recognize the other party as a human with feelings, a human who is a good as you. You don't see that because all you can see is the pain of losing the person you like!
You don't need remote controls or pull some strings if you have a loving and caring relationship. Just be yourself. If you think your true self is not good enough, then improve yourself. It's a matter of choice and discipline.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Sexual Perversions that you Need to know of :D
masochism
Psychosexual disorder in which an individual achieves erotic release by being subjected to pain or humiliation. The term is derived from the name of Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, a 19th-century Austrian novelist who wrote extensively about the sexual enjoyment he derived from verbal and physical abuse. The amount of pain involved can vary; it is usually sought out and to some degree controlled by the masochist. Masochistic and sadistic traits often occur in the same individual.
Sadism is pleasure derived from inflicting cruelty on another person. Richard von Krafft-Ebing coined the term in reference to the writings of the Marquis de Sade. In "Three Essays on the Theory of Sexuality" (1905d) Sigmund Freud described sadism as the active form in a pair of opposites, masochism being the passive form of the same sexual perversion.
Taken from Psychoanalysis
Knowing more of what we may face today in our battle over control can really open your eyes. It makes you say, "Glad I wasn't that guy." or "Good thing I wasn't under the girl."
Psychosexual disorder in which an individual achieves erotic release by being subjected to pain or humiliation. The term is derived from the name of Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, a 19th-century Austrian novelist who wrote extensively about the sexual enjoyment he derived from verbal and physical abuse. The amount of pain involved can vary; it is usually sought out and to some degree controlled by the masochist. Masochistic and sadistic traits often occur in the same individual.
Sadism is pleasure derived from inflicting cruelty on another person. Richard von Krafft-Ebing coined the term in reference to the writings of the Marquis de Sade. In "Three Essays on the Theory of Sexuality" (1905d) Sigmund Freud described sadism as the active form in a pair of opposites, masochism being the passive form of the same sexual perversion.
Taken from Psychoanalysis
Knowing more of what we may face today in our battle over control can really open your eyes. It makes you say, "Glad I wasn't that guy." or "Good thing I wasn't under the girl."
Jumping out of the Notebook
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My eyes look like they're having a seizure. Wow, 'The Notebook' really is a marvelous movie. The body language and the holding on to love and being at peace with yourself, and it being about what you love, what do I want in life? What do I want? What do I want to do?
Not knowing what you want must be the worst thing in thw world. Why don't I plan and push through? At least I planned them, right? Not other people's plan, I would only be happy if it were my plan, what I really want. So I need to reboost myself to be the best me I can be. Self rating for today, March 26, 2010 is 5 out of 10. 5 because I recognize that I need to be better. Life is an on-going process.
My eyes look like they're having a seizure. Wow, 'The Notebook' really is a marvelous movie. The body language and the holding on to love and being at peace with yourself, and it being about what you love, what do I want in life? What do I want? What do I want to do?
Not knowing what you want must be the worst thing in thw world. Why don't I plan and push through? At least I planned them, right? Not other people's plan, I would only be happy if it were my plan, what I really want. So I need to reboost myself to be the best me I can be. Self rating for today, March 26, 2010 is 5 out of 10. 5 because I recognize that I need to be better. Life is an on-going process.
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